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The Paddle and The Damage Undone

I knew the second the words left my mouth that I’d gone too far. The argument seemed so important in the moment—my pride wanted the last word, and I raised my voice at David with a sharpness I regretted almost immediately. He didn’t yell back. He never does. Instead, he stood quietly, watching me with steady patience that felt heavier than any outburst could. That look alone told me I’d disappointed him, and my chest tightened.

He left the room without a word, and when he returned, the paddle was in his hand. My heart thudded and I felt my pussy swell and moisten. The sight of the spanking paddle always makes me squirm, because I know what it means: not anger, not cruelty, but correction. My throat tightened, pride warring with the sinking feeling that I deserved what was coming. He didn’t even need to tell me to bend over – just pointed at the chair. Obedience didn’t feel optional—it felt necessary.

paddling story

The first strike landed sharp and sudden, making me gasp. The sting spread instantly, a hot bloom across my skin. Before I could catch my breath, the next one fell, harder. The sound of wood against flesh echoed in the room, followed by the burn that made me wince and grip the chair in front of me. With each swat, I felt the last scraps of defiance slipping away. The pain was real, intense, and humbling, forcing me to let go of the pride I’d clung to so stubbornly.

I wanted to wriggle away, to beg him to stop—but I didn’t. Part of me needed the lesson, needed to endure it. Each strike carried more than pain; it carried David’s authority, his steadiness, his love wrapped in discipline. I realized, in that rhythm of sting and ache, that this was not punishment meant to hurt me, but correction meant to guide me back where I belonged.

By the time he was done, my skin throbbed with a deep, lingering ache. I could feel the heat rising from every spot the paddle had kissed, the soreness anchoring me firmly in the lesson. My eyes stung with unshed tears—not from resentment, but from release. The fight had drained out of me completely. In its place was a quiet calm, the relief of surrender, and the comforting certainty that David’s dominant hand, even when it wields pain, does so out of care.

When he put the paddle aside and drew me against him, I melted into his chest. The ache remained, but it felt right—like a reminder written into my body that obedience isn’t weakness, but love in its truest form. And as I rested there, humbled and grateful, I realized again how his discipline doesn’t push me away—it draws me closer, shaping me into the wife I want to be for him. My hands slid from his chest down to his belt, unclasping the buckle, my face still wet against his chest. I unbuttoned his pants, tugged his zipper down, and squirmed my fingers down and around his hardening cock. I pulled my repentent face from his chest and looked into his eyes with all the love I could muster, then bent down and touched my tear-covered cheeks to his glans, wetting it with my tears.

I opened my my mouth wide and closed my lips around his concrete rod, licking it wet and slippery and shiny before sliding him deep into my gaping willing mouth, until I had buried my face into his belly, until his tip kocked at the back of my throat. He moaned low and combed his fingers into my hair as I slid my lips over him, rasping his shaft with my cat’s tongue, drool dripping from my mouth down onto his balls.

He wouldn’t be long, I could tell, though I wanted it to take all night. His moans came faster and his breathing heavier, his hands more insistent at the back of my head. I gripped his shaft with my hand and slid my lips over him faster, sucking, licking, and loving him with all I could give. His moans quickened and he gripped the sides of my head and held it fast as he came, the spurt of his hot salty cum splashing across the back of my throat sending waves of orgasm shuddering through me as I came before finally collapsing into his lap.

He let me lay there for a moment before he picked my head up and turned my face to his. “Did you just come mwithout permission?” he asked. And in that instant I knew that we would repeat the entire cycle. All over again. From the very beginning. Through the bittersweet middle. To the ecstatic end. Until I finally got it right.

The First Time I Spanked Chelsea

The first time I spanked Chelsea was one of hardest things I’ve ever done in my life.  There was so much going though my mind at the time that I didn’t think I could get through it.

  The act of spanking between a committed couple is something that triggers a lot of emotions in the two individuals involved.  Some find it exciting.  Some find it sexy.  Some find it “fun” to give spankings, and some find it “fun” to receive spankings.  Some are aroused by the very thought of spanking.  Some like to fool around in a flirtatious way with playful spankings.  That’s all well and good, and I can understand all of that to a certain degree.  However, fortunately or unfortunately (depending on where you stand on spanking) I find spanking to be none of those things.  

  Some would say I’m missing out.  Some may say I’m too rigid or uptight about this whole spanking stuff.  Spankings can be fun and arousing Clint!  Geez, lighten up a little, will ya?  See the sexy side of spanking!  Enjoy the sexy side of spanking!  

  Well, sorry to disappoint those of you on that end of the spanking spectrum, but spanking doesn’t do it for me.  It just doesn’t.  Spanking isn’t my “thing” when it comes to foreplay, sex, etc.  I don’t find it fun at all.  Spanking is a punishment.  That’s always been my view of spanking.  Inflicting pain upon, or receiving pain from another person has never been something I’ve perceived as being “fun”, exciting or pleasant.  Spanking falls into that category for me.  I guess I’m boring.

  Having said all of that, spanking Chelsea for the first time was very, very difficult for me.  I don’t even know which emotion to start with.  I suppose I’ll start with scared since, looking back on it, that was probably the most intense emotion of them all.

  What was I scared of?  Well, I was scared Chelsea would hate me forever if I spanked her.  Even though she was the one to kick-start this lifestyle in our relationship knowing fully what it entailed, I was scared she would flip out after I spanked her, and I was scared that it would do more harm to our relationship than good.  I was scared this would backfire in a big way, and I didn’t know if our relationship would recover if it did.  It’s funny to talk about this now, six and a half years later, knowing how wrong my thinking was.  But, at the time, that’s how I felt.

  I was also scared I would spank too hard.  I didn’t want to hurt her.  I knew the spanking had to be somewhat painful, but I was scared I would overdo it (and thus she’d hate me).  I really didn’t want to screw this up.  I really didn’t want to do it at all.

  In addition to being scared, I was really nervous.  I didn’t know what I was doing or how to do it.  I didn’t know what to say.  It was a really awkward moment for both of us.

  I had Chelsea lean over our bed and I used my hand to spank with.  She was wearing some light pajama pants.  I spanked her around 8 times or so, maybe 10, and that was it.  She was flinching and making little whimpers on the last few strikes.  I had to stop.  I apologized excessively to her and probably asked her fifteen times if she was okay.  I thought I had just screwed up the best relationship of my life.

  I felt bad when the spanking was over.  She was in pain and it was because of what I had done to her.  That’s not a good feeling.  She wasn’t crying, but she was clearly uncomfortable.  We embraced for a few moments and lied down together on the bed.  I felt like a total jerk.

  In the middle of my apologizing and asking repeatedly if she was okay, Chelsea reassured me that she was fine.  She didn’t want me to feel guilty about spanking her, and she reassured me that she had no issue with it whatsoever.  She understood.  Without that understanding and reassurance from her in that moment, I don’t know if I could have ever spanked her again.  She calmed ME down in that moment, which seems ironic, but I needed it.

  It was the results of this whole experience that made me see the true benefit of spanking, and living the domestic discipline lifestyle.  Chels and I were reconnected instantly.  It was a much deeper connection as well.  I could type for hours trying to explain this to someone who has never been through it, but you really have to go through a spanking with the one you love to fully understand what I mean.  The connection, the spark — whatever you want to call it — was truly something special after that first spanking.

  That, combined with the fire lit under Chelsea to get things done (she was spanked for procrastinating), made me see and understand what living this lifestyle was all about.  A punishment spanking may be an emotionally difficult thing to go through, but the rewards on the other side are beyond worth it.